Change is coming

Baby girl is due exactly 2 months from today and I am so unprepared!  I am really ready to hold her and cuddle her and introduce her to her big brother and welcome her into our family.  I am not ready when Jason starts being winey and not telling me what in the world he wants and I can't fathom how I am going to work with him when I am trying to take care of a newborn at the same time, on very little sleep at that.  We are not at all ready in that her nursery is still a very full office.  I told Jeff he had until the end of February to move the office out and the nursery in and maybe it is just the nesting instinct, but I am so restless to get started on making a room for baby!  There are some really good reasons for waiting, one of the better ones being that we don't really have a room for the office so it will just be taking over half of the living room, but it doesn't mean I'm not restless. 

I took this restlessness out on Jeff a couple of days ago.  I found a really great short term deal on an expensive double stroller.  It is the one I have had my eye on for a while, but we had agreed it was too much to spend on a stroller that we might not be using that long since Jason already resists being contained in a stroller.  In a year we hope he will be willing to walk beside us and behave.  When I saw this stroller at about $100 off I called Jeff before making that big of a purchase, and he said no.  I understand his reasons for saying no, but I don't like it.  I worry about being homebound and unable to take both of our children out because I can't chase Jason and carry or push Elizabeth, but we will figure it out. 

Then later that night I was changing purses because mine is falling apart and tried to put all my stuff in an old purse I was planning on using after baby girl was here to lug all of our gear.  It was way smaller than I remembered, or maybe I just carry way more than I realized.  Either way I started noodling around and went back to looking at a diaper bag I wanted early on in this pregnancy.  It is kind of pricy and Jeff talked me out of it before and I figured I could just make due with one of the many bags we already have.  Again, when I heard Jeff say no I was a little disappointed.  There were not the happiest of words exchanged in our house that evening, but the next day I analyzed why I was being so gimmy gimmy grabby and I think part of it is the fact that buying stuff was one way for me to feel more ready for this baby to get here.  I still want those things, but I know that as long as this baby girl is welcomed into our home with love it will all be okay.

Holiday Wrap Up

Please forgive me for slacking, we have had a busy week and I have been a little preoccupied playing with my new toys.  We had a wonderful time over Christmas and really enjoyed seeing our family.  We got to Texas the Tuesday before Christmas and since it was pretty yucky weather we stayed in and played games most of the time (Jeff was in heaven!)  On Christmas Eve we went to the pageant and saw Aunt Michelle and Uncle Michael sing.

Christmas morning started early and was enjoyed by all.  Jason opened his first gift and had to be convinced to leave it to open more.  There was no surprise that Jason was spoiled quite a bit, but his favorite gifts were his Thomas trains, kitchen set and alphabet train.  There was one big surprise in store for me.  Jeff told me that he would be getting himself a new Ipod since his is over 4 years old and on its last legs.  He had some points from our credit cards so I was okay with that.  Little did I know that he actually got us a new Ipad! 

We had fun the rest of the week also.  Jason really enjoyed wandering around while Jeff and some of the rest of the family went frisbee golfing and hiking up Enchanted Rock.  I really enjoyed going shopping for our little girl and getting ready to spoil her.  Unfortunately all good things must come to an end.  We traveled home on the first Monday of the New Year and had to find home for all of our new stuff.  We also took down all of our Christmas decorations and I couldn't help but to remember that next year we will have another little one possibly crawling around and got a little teary eyed.