Our little family is settling in at home. Elizabeth is a great eater and even lets us get lots of sleep some nights. We are getting to know her personality a little better. She doesn't like anything up near her chin and like most babies loves to be held when she sleeps. I wanted to try to get her sleeping in her crib early on, but we haven't gotten around to it because we are worried about disturbing Jason's sleep. We were so blessed to have Grandma Salomon stay with us for a week after Elizabeth was born. She cooked and cleaned and took care of all of us. Jason loved having the extra attention and Grandma loved spending time with both of her grandbabies. We didn't want to send her back, but Grandpa and Uncle Michael were missing her. So on Saturday we all drove up to Albuquerque to take Grandma to the airport with promises that she would see us in a few weeks. The Salomon's have offered to help us move into our new Tucson house over Easter weekend.
We took advantage of our time in Albuquerque and found a refrigerator for our new house (it was missing one), a double stroller, and a bunch of summer clothes for Elizabeth. We were told that Elizabeth was going to be a large baby so I didn't have many summer clothes for her in newborn size which is what it ends up our tiny girl will need for a while. I must not have been thinking when I stocked up because for some reason most of her clothes were long sleeve and pants which is a little warm for our 80 degree spring days.
I though the most difficult thing about Monday would be handling 2 kids by myself. I was so nervous, but forced myself to be productive and went grocery shopping and got some laundry done. Right after I got Jason down for his nap Jeff called. I was so excited to tell him how well everything was going, but he also had some things to tell me. Apparently his company was no longer going to be in the reclamations any more, which means that he had a job for now, but needed to start looking for a new one. The rug was pulled right out from under us. Goodbye Tucson, goodbye house. Life was changing. I went through so many emotions right then: anger at his boss who we asked if we should commit to a house, frustration and sadness that we wouldn't be fulfilling our housing dream at this point, concern in the fact that we have 2 kids that need food and clothes, and a million others that I couldn't name. We have gotten started on canceling the contract on the house and Jeff is starting to contact his contacts to see if he can find a good job that he wants. And we have been praying, oh there has been so much praying for guidance and help. Obviously the Tucson plan wasn't what God had in mind for us, but I kind of liked it, so it has been hard for me to let go of. I know that God will guide us and we just need to trust him.
Now that I have had a few days for this news to sink in, I am still a little upset, but I am trying to accept that there is a plan for us that I may not understand. As always we will keep you guys updated on where our life leads.